Wednesday, October 31, 2007
moving on
i still don't like certain people and things in my life but since i choose to not get rid of them i might as well take them in stride. i am holding on with the hope that maybe something good will come out of surviving people who continually disappoint me and of spending most hours of my day in a disenchanting space.i am okay. i have my friends. friends who've been there from the very beginning. friends who came in late in the game but who rallied me through my most important victories. friends who text me from out of the blue to check on me (thanks rich!) and who take the time to drop by to make sure that i am really fine (thanks janus!) because they read my blog and sense that something is quite not right. these little gestures remind me that long before all the craziness were the things and people that really matter.
actually i have always been okay. i have my family who is always looking forward to my coming home.
i think it's true when they say love is passion, admiration, and respect but that passion comes in many forms. i've always looked to time spent speeding in the track, engaging in sports or anything heart-wrenching or gut-clinching as passion. but passion can also be comfort, safety and security. it can also be trust, friendship and familiarity. so i am moving on with more of the subtle kind of passion in my heart.
(11:56 PM) ♥ tal
Sunday, October 28, 2007
weekly top 5
e! has daily top ten. i have my weekly top 5.5 daddy's little girl - i got an email from my tatay, a walt disney quiz. he's a man of few words and though our relationship is not perfect he always finds a way to send his message across. yes tay, i am still your little girl (and don't worry i am going home very soon) but don't you wish for me to grow up?
4 sweets galore - i am a big kid with a really sweet tooth. thanks to my officemates for the special loot bags most especially to cands, marls and happiness for the first batch of goodies that i got. while i appreciate ahia's diabetes concern, please understand that i need sugar rush now more than ever.
3 winning streak - ateneo may have lost in the UAAP but kimi and ferrari are world champions. i am positive my boston red sox will win the world series. not bad at all.
2 little victories - best time at the track. a by-line for a story i actually had fun writing after quite a rough start. finally some me time.
1 dilbert moments - i know that i am not alone. two close friends just shared with me that the past two months had not been the best for them either. people assured me that i am fine and i know i am. however i will be honest now and say that i am not entirely okay. i did not like how i handled some things lately. it is so not me and while dilbert can shed some light to my current plight somehow it's not enough. it's just a piece of the pie so i am not so worried. my life after all is beyond this. but i will rant and go on to say that i think i've had enough, that i hope grown-ups realize that sometimes they don't have the right to mess up because it can be very disappointing. that you earn damn respect. i should have told you off but i am done trying so hard for now. in fact i think that is the problem i do my damn best in fact try so hard while some people won't even budge. they are either freakin' static or a goddamn vicious cycle.
it's the start of a new week and i promise myself it will be way better.
(12:04 AM) ♥ tal
Friday, October 26, 2007
it's not me, it's you!
i should have said it but for some reason i can't instead i switched gears so now i don't like the way i'm driving. i'll let you in soon, not now when everyone is watching.(1:50 AM) ♥ tal
Tuesday, October 23, 2007
p.s. i'm fine
i'm lonely, i'm tired, i'm sad, i'm happy, i'm lucky, i'm unlucky; i'm a million different things everyday of the week. but i suppose OK is one of them. and if my card is right i'll soon be fine.(1:33 AM) ♥ tal
and the card says...
You are Strength
Courage, strength, fortitude. Power not arrested in the act of judgement, but passing on to further action, sometimes obstinacy.
This is a card of courage and energy. It represents both the Lion's hot, roaring energy, and the Maiden's steadfast will. The innocent Maiden is unafraid, undaunted, and indomitable. In some cards she opens the lion's mouth, in others she shuts it. Either way, she proves that inner strength is more powerful than raw physical strength. That forces can be controlled and used to score a victory is very close to the message of the Chariot, which might be why, in some decks, it is Justice that is card 8 instead of Strength. With strength you can control not only the situation, but yourself. It is a card about anger and impulse management, about creative answers, leadership and maintaining one's personal honor. It can also stand for a steadfast friend.
What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.
(1:19 AM) ♥ tal
Monday, October 22, 2007
i'm on a high....
kimi high =) way to go ferrari!(5:44 PM) ♥ tal
Thursday, October 18, 2007
food does the trick!
coping for me is almost synonymous to food. these days my general mood has been great and it has a lot to do with that trivia so let me tell you about the winner restos i've tried this week.it started off with classic cuisine dinner in rockwell with ineng, teppy and gino. i picked it to end the long weekend with a bang and we loved it. i'm not fond of soup but the pancit molo was a good choice to drown all our tiredness away.
monday was reserved for my grocery shopping but it still had a lot to do with what i put in my mouth. it's been a while since i picked whatever i like so that night i grabbed a lot of chips and chocolates plus my staple of processed breakfast food. bad me but i just can't help it.
tuesday was reserved for honey's birthday dinner at larry's cafe in serendra with of course the birthday girl and teppy. wait list at abe was long so we moved to larry's. we ordered food from abe (also from the LJC group) but we ordered the dessert molten lava in house. it was the time of the month for me but at the end of the night i was feeling so much better.
lunch at 7 corners in crowne galleria was quite an experience. there were so many choices but my favorites include steak, rice in the thai area and creme brulee. on top of that my editor and i learned so much from the ac nielsen guys. stuff you will get to read about in adobo soon. (on to a totally unrelated topic, the new location of emphasis in rockwell is also a winner. after my foot spa massage my feet is so ready to do all the talking, naks!)
tonight i just got back from dinner with cile, chris and raymond at chelsea. i was late and food wasn't so impressive but i love whatever that fish they ordered. oh and the chocnut cake was not so bad either. seriously i'll miss you sweets!
so here i am coping and loving it as long as there's good food coming my way ;)
(9:36 PM) ♥ tal
Wednesday, October 17, 2007
fix me =)
When you try your best but you don’t succeedWhen you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can’t sleep
Stuck in reverse
And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you
And high up above or down below
When you’re too in love to let it go
But if you never try you’ll never know
Just what you’re worth
Coldplay it is! So i STILL try, i cope and then at the end of every single day i smile knowing that i tried. and now i am coping =)
(1:50 AM) ♥ tal
Wednesday, October 10, 2007
when all else fails...
find the one thing this moment needs to chase the blues away, it's wednesday and i'm still smiling, thank God for formula 1 =)(10:57 PM) ♥ tal
Thursday, October 04, 2007
i'm not feeling nice
help. i seem to be running out of niceness. i will try and make it up to you people but these days it is not looking good for some of you. so there until i am all nice again.(12:46 AM) ♥ tal
Monday, October 01, 2007
ang sarap pa rin maging atenista
it kills me to see them lose to la salle of all schools but then again that's life. i no longer follow UAAP basketball games as much as before. after the championship during my senior year, i felt like it was time to move on and not be as avid (i also had the best excuses then: i write for the sports section of the guidon/atenista.net and one of my closest friends' uncle was coach) as before but somehow schedules and results of games would find their way to me. this year, i especially cheered for them to win if only for chris tiu to win a championship before he leaves. yesterday it was the end of the road and now more than ever i know that win or lose, it really is ateneo i will always choose. after all, they break my heart but they always come back :)(10:28 AM) ♥ tal
