Monday, August 06, 2007
not so fiction
i longed for the rain to stop so i can make a mad dash to home. i have stayed long enough to part read part browse a book i have been wanting to buy. i thank the rain for that because i would have wasted a good 600 bucks on some chic lit book i would not want to read again nor pass on to friends that has long been a habit of mine. i was getting antsy and have given serious thought to light the last dunhill i have but instead i play my ipod full blast as if drowning the sound of rain drops would stop it from falling as well. my mind is now beginning to wander.i am with my guy best friend who just won a gold in cannes. my boyfriend is on his way from a very important client meeting. he's a hotshot rookie lawyer of the number one firm in the country. i was happy with my life but i was also conscious of the stares particularly from this one guy who once had been a part of me. i seem to never get past the label of home wrecker, thrown at me by those who knew both of us and believed i should have known better, after all he was still semi-attached when we had our thing. he meant it when he said he wanted to fight for it, for me and for us. although i am passionate about going for your dreams and not giving a damn about what other people think i had to give ours a pass. actually now that i think about it he did not stare like the others, he merely glanced once and then looked away.
the rain show no sign of stopping so i went ahead and went home. as soon as i opened my door i smile. even in my drenched state, i still believe that happiness is a choice. should i change my mind i have tomorrow to deal with it.
(11:08 PM) ♥ tal
