Sunday, June 14, 2009
lipstick jungle
only for me there's no lipstick, just a jungle.i cry all the time but not like today. it's amazing how people, no matter how far they maybe, can break you easily. as a daughter i am far from being ideal but as i said to my father most of the time i do the right thing. he agrees with me, an assurance worthy of another round of tears. my mother is another story. i love her dearly but sometimes she's just too much and i've had enough. i don't know how i can hold out with making her feel that i do not approve of whatever she said today through a silent protest. i wish i can just go on a hunger strike instead to drive home the point but doing so would mean i am doing a peace offering. so today, not for the first time, i want to show my mother that my most valuable trait is courage and perseverance - to prove a point. this time though, i have to sample it to her.
a moment of respite descended and then suddenly i read an email that really irked me but it's bordering comic so i just had to laugh. i think i reserve my patience for the wrong people that i actually end up bursting on other people (my outbursts to my mom is not included, those are totally independent scenarios) which is so not good. so sorry for you guys but i'm on a silent war with my mother and you're not helping. i guess i'll half my sampling and give off some to you.
my life was fine and then i finally found the time to read my books and watch my series so now the drama's catching up on me too. bring it on because no matter how this day or any upcoming day rocked/will rock me, i will always be steadily going with the flow.
(11:59 PM) ♥ tal
